Bullseye

I don't subscribe to most personality tests, but this one hits pretty close to the mark. Do your own test here.

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are trying to improve your position and prestige - be it in your life or in your workplace. Things are, at this time, OK - but they could be better. You feel that it is essential that you break down any opposition that could possibly lurk in the shadows. You know that you are quite capable of achieving this set goal because you have to and because it is essential to your self esteem.

Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You really would like to be completely uninhibited - to let your hair down - but you are held back by your sense of logic and rationalilty, since you realise that by simple stupidity you could lose everything - whatever that may be.

On The Road Again

I remember when I was in Sec 4, I wrote an essay about a backpacker who wandered around the world by himself and while interacting with people, walks off in the sunset by himself. Scored the highest I ever did for an English essay in my life. It was not hard. Three and a half pages writing about myself in an hour flat.

I'm usually seen as an extrovert. Thing is, since young. I had to be extroverted. I think I had a slightly more unsettled time growing up than most. Being friendly and likable was a survival trait. The ability to make small talk a necessary skill.

In university I straddled various cliques. I was closer to certain individuals, but never had a group I could really call my own. Sure it got lonely at times, but it was a price I was willing to pay because I felt it kept me from stagnating, becoming complacent and a box from forming around my mind.

Over the last year, I was in a relationship. It was not a conventional one, but nevertheless the timing of everything seemed like a godsend. The way she fitted against my shoulder amazes me every single time. I thought, here is someone that understands. It was as if I found a twin of my soul that I never knew I had. Lay aside your travels, here is an end of your search. The wanderer has found a companion in his travels.

Alas, it's not to be.

So I guess it's time to move on. Exit stage right, the solitary walk into the sunset or the dark night. Either way, the back is turned, and fades from view, savouring the companion chill of the December rain and denying the comfort of the cloak of self sufficiency and solitude for the moment because it has been a long time since he felt for anyone with this much intensity. 

Thank you for being there when I needed you.
Thank you for a year where ordinary things become beautiful.
Thank you for a million and one things.
Thank you for the pain of leaving, because it reminds me that I can feel again.
And thank you, for making it such that we can still be friends in time to come when I can finally find strength again.

Who knows, maybe paths might one day cross again and different roads may again intertwine.

Tagged By JasChocolate

What disappoints you the most?
Me

Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
South America

What’s your favorite thing to do?
Sex, Dance, Drink, Watching People and testing myself. In that order.

Do you think money can buy happiness?
Money facilitates happiness.

If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
That my Burmese friends are here in Singapore. It's a different junta, but at least this one works.

Do you believe you can survive without money?
Sure. Time to dig into my gold reserve.

What are you afraid to lose the most?
My mind and my heart.

If you win $1 million, what would you do?
1/4 to church. 1/4 to family. 1/4 to myself and 1/4 in reserve for investment.

What color represents you the most?
White

List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Nice claws, innocent, I THINK she reads.

What makes you happy?
Lots of things. When in doubt, gimme money.

What type of person do you hate the most?
Stupid people, and idiots who can't drive.

Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Retired, but working

If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
Reading People's Minds.

What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My Way

Any childhood memories you’ll like to re-live?
nope

What makes you cry?
selfless acts of beauty

What is your least favourite animal?
Mosquitoes, and stupid people

What is one thing your friends probably don’t know about you?
Whatever it is, it shall remain unknown.

Tagging: YOU. You read it, now you do it. And leave a comment afterwards so I have something to read.